An Experience of a Higher State of Consciousness (#1)

What a time to have a “spiritual awakening”. I live near Stone Mountain in Atlanta, Georgia and was in corporate sales. Because I was between jobs, my daily lifestyle was conducive to spiritual growth. My habits were regular, including eating times and quality of food. There were no big stressors in my life.

My habit of smoking several cigarettes a day quickly and effortlessly dissolved away, as well as drinking a glass of wine a few nights a week (work days). I simply did not want cigarettes or wine anymore. My golden retriever and golden Labrador were the love of my life. We hiked together for a few hours each day. I faithfully meditated [Transcendental Meditation] twice daily, now had no “bad” habits and had been a vegetarian most all of my life. (I am not a vegetarian now).

About a month earlier I had resigned from my job to relocate to Atlanta, and started practicing 10-15 minutes of simple yoga postures followed by 10 minutes of a simple breathing practice, pranayama, before both of my daily meditations. Also, because I had the additional time to invest in food preparation, I began a diet of 75% raw foods and 25% cooked foods and a fresh raw veggie juice each morning. I was well-rested. Far gone were those typical 50+ hour high stress, high pressure work weeks.

During one particular morning meditation, I experienced what I can only call “bliss”. This beautiful feeling of an inner happiness and pure peace that truly cannot be described, was so overwhelming that tears were streaming down my cheeks. It was the most beautiful, comforting feeling I had ever experienced.

I was feeling extreme energy with what I can only define as a lightness, an UN-heaviness and an aliveness in my base chakra location (though I didn’t know what chakras were at that time). It was like a wave of aliveness waking up inside of me. It started at the base chakra location and seemed to expand further up into my entire stomach area, then chest area and then my entire upper body and head.

The only word I can come up with to describe this freeing feeling is bliss – extreme inner joy, a pure love and a pure peace. This was no doubt, a “Divine” experience.

This feeling continued with me consistently for a few plus days. It was an absolute freedom from heaviness and limitation. It was an aliveness that no words can describe. I was in love. Simply put, I was in love with myself, life and all. Not with anyone or anything in particular, but with everyone and everything. I felt that I WAS the love, bliss, peace energy. It was me and I was it.

I carried on about my day as usual. I was smiling a lot spontaneously. When I went to the store or on my usual daily walk in nature, or even filling up the tank at the gas station, I felt this deep, love and gratitude to everyone I saw around me. I knew without any doubt or even any thought, that we were directly connected. They were literally a part of me and I was a part of them. I knew this.

I had deep love and appreciation to them simply for existing and being exactly who they were. I somehow knew that their existence enabled me to be who I was and I had an automatic deep gratitude to them for it. I would have surrendered my life to them in a second with total devotion and love for them.

I had no fear of any kind. I knew I was immortal. I was in pure bliss. I was in love and had absolutely zero fear or worry about anything of any kind. The weight of my physical body felt incredibly light. I felt so alive, energized and of a pure freedom that is indescribable. It felt the extreme opposite of loneliness.

One afternoon, I was eating a plate of chopped fresh fruit. While I was bringing a bite of banana and a grape to my mouth with a fork, at that very second, I became one with that fruit. I had so much gratitude to the fruit for sharing itself with me and the fruit had so much gratitude to me for loving it, appreciating it and eating it.

The fruit was giving itself to me in total love and devotion and I was giving it my love and gratitude at the same time. I knew the fruit was literally a live being. It was not just a thing – fruit. It was a live being. The fruit and I literally were one – totally connected and in ecstatic love with each other.

These few plus days, I of course, noticed how I did not have my usual worrisome thoughts about the need to find a job soon. My mind questioned this and I was intellectually puzzled. I thought to myself, “wow, I have absolutely no fear or worry about the fact that I need a job and still don’t have one”. I giggled in delight with this difference in my perception. I felt like an innocent, lighthearted child that didn’t yet know what fear, judgment or worry was.

When at the grocery store I saw people around me and I noticed how I did not have usual judgmental thoughts about them, like judging how they were dressed, how they looked, what they represented, etc. I automatically loved them so very much and I felt like we were all literally very closely related blood-brothers and sisters.

I noticed when I was walking on a more isolated trail in the mountains with my dogs and I came upon a guy walking in the area, I did not have reservations or thoughts about needing to be guarded, being in a somewhat vulnerable position out alone with a stranger and just myself. There was no such fear or reservations!

I even intellectualized in my mind that if that man were a “bad” guy and were to want to attack me or something, I would be happy to be a part of giving him an experience he needed.

There was nothing to fear regardless of what might ever happen. I would literally laugh out loud realizing there was nothing to fear! Everything was perfect no matter what. My existence was here for him as much as it was for me. I was in a place of automatic surrender to whatever was and could not feel fear in any way whatsoever. Such fear was simply not capable of being within my psyche or consciousness.

My mind would sometimes have the same thoughts that used to make me feel fearful, but there was no attachment of feeling fearful with these thoughts. It was like my feelings were not attached to or connected with my thoughts anymore. My thoughts did not control how I felt at all whatsoever and I intellectually recognized this difference. This was so incredibly interesting and intriguing to me, far beyond fascinating and liberating! I was at an inner state of awareness and direct experience of total freedom from all fear and judgments.

After a few plus days, this state of experience began to quickly fade as I was getting ready for a job interview. Within a few hours, I was back to my “normal” state of awareness. The emptiness and lack of this love, peace, inner joy and freedom was a devastating disappointment. I was sobbing frequently for days after I lost this state of experience.

It was an extreme contrast and the loss with that was such a deep, painful loss. I yearned for that experience to come back more than words can describe. I felt so limited and separate again and I could do nothing for days but sob intensely, feeling the deepest pain imaginable of sorrow, emptiness and the loss of that love, freedom, joy, bliss and non-separateness.

I got that job and started working there a week later. It was beyond challenging trying to transition back to a very busy and stressful 50+ hour work week again doing something that was utterly meaningless to me. The contrast of activity was actually painful. I did not have another higher state of consciousness experience for years later.

Working again, I immediately got back into the daily grind of busy, stressful days with my job. I returned to fast food pick up on the run, waking up at 5am exhausted and dreading another long, hectic day of work ahead. I stopped doing my Pranayama and yoga. A couple weeks later, I started smoking again.

Although, it was challenging as always to fit in a 45 minute meditation twice daily and required diligent daily discipline, I was used to this daily habit of maintaining my two daily meditations. I sacrificed my sleep and a social life for it. I couldn’t go out with friends after work as other people did if I were going to get in my second meditation. But, I consciously chose to make my meditations a priority.

What I didn’t know then and knowing what I know now, I am certain this energy, this direct experience, was what Jesus refers to as the Father – the presence of God; the presence and awareness of our soul or higher self.

I will share about my next “spiritual awakening” experience and post within the next week. I hope you will also share some of your experiences here on my “Help From Heaven and Friends of HOPE” Facebook page. I know that in the sharing of our experiences we can inspire us and teach each other more. I will resume “Messages From Heaven” tomorrow. – Connie Fox

 (April 5, 2015)

 

 

 

 

 

An Experience of a Higher State of Consciousness (Experience #1)

What a time to have a “spiritual awakening”.  I live near Stone Mountain in Atlanta, Georgia and was in corporate sales. Because I was between jobs, my daily lifestyle was conducive to spiritual growth. My habits were regular, including eating times and quality of food. There were no big stressors in my life. My habit of smoking several cigarettes daily quickly and effortlessly dissolved away, as well as my usual glass of wine on week nights (work days). I simply did not want cigarettes or wine anymore. My golden retriever and golden Labrador were the love of my life. We hiked together for a few hours each day. I faithfully meditated [Transcendental Meditation] twice daily, now had no “bad” habits and had been a vegetarian most all of my life. (I am not a vegetarian now).

About a month earlier I had resigned from my job to relocate to Atlanta, and started practicing 10-15 minutes of simple yoga postures followed by 10 minutes of a simple breathing practice, pranayama, before both of my daily meditations. Also, because I had the additional time to invest in food preparation, I began a diet of 75% raw foods and 25% cooked foods. I was well-rested. Far gone were those typical 60+ hour high stress, high pressure work weeks.

During one particular morning meditation, I experienced what I can only call “bliss”. This beautiful feeling of an inner happiness and pure peace that truly cannot be described, was so overwhelming that tears were streaming down my cheeks. It was the most beautiful feeling I had ever experienced. I was feeling extreme energy with what I can only define as a lightness, an UN-heaviness and an aliveness in my base chakra location (though I didn’t know what chakras were at that time). It was like a wave of aliveness waking up inside of me. It started at the base chakra location and seemed to expand further up into my entire stomach area, then chest area and then my entire upper body and head. The only word I can come up with to describe this freeing feeling is bliss – extreme inner joy, a pure love and a pure peace. This was no doubt, a “Divine” experience.

This feeling continued with me consistently for a few plus days. It was an absolute freedom from heaviness and limitation. It was an aliveness that no words can describe. I was in love. Simply put, I was in love with myself, life and all. Not with anyone or anything in particular, but with everyone and everything. I felt that I WAS the love, bliss, peace energy. It was me and I was it.

I carried on about my day as usual. I was smiling a lot spontaneously. When I went to the store or on my usual daily walk in nature, or even filling up the tank at the gas station, I felt this deep, love and gratitude to everyone I saw around me. I knew without any doubt or even any thought, that we were directly connected. They were literally a part of me and I was a part of them. I knew this. I had deep love and appreciation to them simply for existing and being exactly who they were. I somehow knew that their existence enabled me to be who I was and I had an automatic deep gratitude to them for it. I would have surrendered my life to them in a second with total devotion and love for them. I had no fear of any kind. I knew I was immortal. I was in pure bliss. I was in love and had absolutely zero fear or worry about anything of any kind. I felt so alive, energized and of a pure freedom that is indescribable. It felt the extreme opposite of loneliness.

One afternoon, I was eating a plate of chopped fresh fruit. While I was bringing a bite of banana and a grape to my mouth with a fork, at that very second, I became one with that fruit. I had so much gratitude to the fruit for sharing itself with me and the fruit had so much gratitude to me for loving it, appreciating it and eating it. The fruit was giving itself to me in total love and devotion and I was giving it my love and gratitude at the same time. I knew the fruit was literally a live being. It was not just a thing – fruit. It was a live being. The fruit and I literally were one – totally connected and in ecstatic love with each other.

These few plus days, I of course, noticed how I did not have my usual worrisome thoughts about the need to find a job soon. My mind questioned this and I was intellectually puzzled. I thought to myself, “wow, I have absolutely no fear or worry about the fact that I need a job and still don’t have one”. I giggled in delight with this difference in my perception. I felt like an innocent, lighthearted child that didn’t yet know what fear, judgment or worry was.

When at the grocery store I saw people around me and I noticed how I did not have usual judgmental thoughts about them, like judging how they were dressed, how they looked, what they represented, etc. I automatically loved them so very much and I felt like we were all literally very closely related blood-brothers and sisters. I noticed when I was walking on a more isolated trail in the mountains with my dogs and I came upon a guy walking in the area, I did not have reservations or thoughts about needing to be guarded, being in a somewhat vulnerable position out alone with a stranger and just myself. There was no such fear or reservations! I even intellectualized in my mind that if that man were a “bad” guy and were to want to attack me or something, I would be happy to be a part of giving him an experience he needed and that we were both meant to experience together. There was nothing to fear regardless of what might ever happen. I would literally laugh out loud realizing there was nothing to fear! Everything was perfect no matter what. My existence was here for him as much as it was for me. I was in a place of automatic surrender to whatever was and could not feel fear in any way whatsoever. Such fear was simply not capable of being within my psyche or consciousness. My mind would sometimes have the same thoughts that used to make me feel fearful, but there was no attachment of feeling fearful with these thoughts. It was like my feelings were not attached to or connected with my thoughts anymore. My thoughts did not control how I felt at all whatsoever and I intellectually recognized this difference. This was so incredibly interesting and intriguing to me, far beyond fascinating and liberating! I was at an inner state of awareness and direct experience of total freedom from all fear and judgments.

After a few plus days, this state of experience began to quickly fade as I was getting ready for a job interview. Within a few hours, I was back to my “normal” state of awareness. The emptiness and lack of this love, peace, inner joy and freedom was a devastating disappointment. I was sobbing on and off frequently for a few days after I lost this state of experience. It was an extreme contrast and the loss with that was such a deep, painful loss. I yearned for that experience to come back more than words can describe. I felt so limited and separate again and I could do nothing for days but sob intensely, feeling the deepest pain imaginable of sorrow, emptiness and the loss of that love, freedom, joy, bliss and non-separateness.

I got that job and started working there a week later. It was beyond challenging trying to transition back to a very busy and stressful 60+ hour work week again doing something that was utterly meaningless to me. The contrast of activity was actually painful. I did not have another higher state of consciousness experience for years later.

Working again, I immediately got back into the daily grind of busy, stressful days with my job. I returned to fast food pick up on the run, waking up at 5am exhausted and dreading another long, hectic day of work ahead. I stopped doing my Pranayama and yoga. A couple weeks later, I started smoking again. Although, it was challenging as always to fit in a 45 minute meditation twice daily and required diligent daily discipline, I was used to this daily habit of maintaining my two daily meditations. I sacrificed my sleep and a social life for it. I couldn’t go out with friends after work as other people did if I were going to get in my second meditation. But, I consciously chose to make my meditations a priority.

What I didn’t know then and knowing what I know now, I am certain this energy, this direct experience, was what Jesus refers to as the Father – the presence of God; the presence and awareness of our soul or higher self.

I will share about my next “spiritual awakening” experience and post within the next week. I hope you will also share some of your experiences here on this Facebook page. I know that in the sharing of our experiences we can inspire us and teach each other more. I will resume Jesus’ daily “Messages From Heaven” tomorrow.